I've been thinking a lot lately about how we live our life and how it's not really how we want it to be or on our terms. Well, no. No, no, no. That's not true at all. We've opted out of institutionalized school and twice I've opted out of institutionalized baby-growing-and-birthing and all of that is/was completely on our terms. There are other things too, mostly having to do with the children and their up-bringing.
But when it comes to money? No. We've suffered a large disappointment today concerning Pat's workplace. And on the heels of that, I am thinking to myself, why do we allow ourselves to be dependent on this company for our livelihood, this company that has screwed us over not just today, but many times over the past several years? Why are we living a life in which someone else determines which times of the day and week we, as a family, can spend together? Why are we putting our well-being in their hands, knowing that they could sever ties at any moment, based on any whim, leaving us with nothing?
I want time. I want the time we have together as a family to belong to us and only us. I want money. I want enough money to pay our bills and have some left over for other necessities and not-so-necessities. I want to be creative and I want that creativity to bring me money. I want my husband to be happy and stress-free. Beyond that, I have absolutely no idea. I don't know where we go from here.
2 comments:
Oh man, I hear you. I wish I had an answer.
When I figure out a solution that doesn't involve winning the lottery, I will definitely tell you about it.
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